There are countless times that I have asked myself why I write. Sometimes everything seems so frustrating and overwhelming that I feel like I'm torturing myself.
About a month ago an old friend announced that he had finished the first draft of his novel. Yesterday he announced that he was querying agents.
I kind of had a moment were I banged my head against the wall. The thing is, my friend is very talented in many things. He's an artist who is getting his first graphic novel published in a couple of months. He also found a way to raise money and publish his own coloring book.
The reason I banged my head against the wall was because I've been working so hard throughout this entire year and I'm no were near the querying process. I muddled up my first draft so much, I'm re-writing the ENTIRE thing. So I'm way behind in my goals.
I just had to ask myself why I couldn't seem to get my act together when my friend is sliding in to stardom with ease. (Really he is, everyone loves him and he might even get on the Conan 'O Brian show with his current project)
Then I remembered something I said, something others have said as well. That you can't compare yourself to anyone else.
Yes, some people can write 10,000 words a day, others seem to have all the lucky breaks, but I am me.
I have two kids who I want to nurture. And though I'm not perfect, I don't ever want them to think they are second best to my writing.
I can't just sit down and write like the wind, I really like to think things through and it takes me some time to get into a groove.
The fact is, I'm not perfect and I'm not fast. Sometimes things take longer than you want, but that's okay becasue you want to have the best possible results. Not everything is a fairy-tale especially when you are trying to write one.
What do you do when you find yourself comparing?